on my mind.

What's been dominating my thoughts for the last couple of weeks?

 

Decisions. 

Decisions for my future. Everywhere.

In 5-10 years from now, I realize that these decisions won't matter. But for right now, they're a pretty dang big deal. Decisions about where to spend next Winter semester, about dating & marriage, about school, about internships, about a mission, etc.

All of these questions constantly dominate my thoughts and fill my head with wonder, curiosity, and excitement. But still, there's always that ounce of worry penetrating every one of those thoughts as well. After all, I am my grandmother's granddaughter.

My grandma, the world's most accomplished worrier and lover, and me.  

My wonderful grandma diligently taught my mother, who diligently taught me that despite all of the whirlwinds of life, there is one sure foundation all can plant themselves on: Jesus Christ. While I can worry all I want to about the future and about making the wrong decisions, if I am doing the simple things each day to keep my foundation on Jesus Christ, I won't go down the wrong path. Things like meaningful scripture study, having a consistently prayerful attitude, inviting the spirit into each day, and being optimistic can provide a sure foundation upon Jesus Christ. 

Recently, I was reminded of the challenge President Eyring issued one general conference, where he said that he asks himself at the end of each day:

"How have I seen the Lord's hand in my life today?" 

For the last week, I've written this question in my journal each night, and I am amazed by the many ways I've seen the Lord's hand in my day. From having a meaningful talk with roommates, to having a verse of scripture speak to my soul, to having the opportunity to talk to my best friend for 10 minutes before she boarded the plane to the mission field, I have seen God's hand in my life in so many ways each day. 

When I'm reminded of this fact, I am reminded that I am capable of making these decisions. That it really will all work out. I don't need to worry. I don't need to stress. I can turn that over to the Lord, and confidently take one more step into my future.